Finally I have good news after all the bad news I had lately. All my friends were not around for me to share, that’s a pity. However I managed to share it with someone which now I regret that I have told him. First upon hearing the news, he simply didn’t say anything. After I asked him why he didn’t, he said it is not good enough for him. Very disappointed!!

Anyway, was having a conversation with my best friend the other day, I was pouring out my disappointment of my closest colleague in the office. We agreed that we always disappointed because we put on hope on the person. The closer you are to someone, we tend to put higher and higher hope on him/her. Even the smallest ‘mistake’ he/she did, will have a big impact, our disappointment will be more than if other person who is not close to us, did the same thing. The thing is, it is human nature, so we are unable to change it the way we want it to be.

I think it is only natural that we get upset more often to our closest persons like family, best friends, good friends, because we take them seriously, listen to what they say, their words carry meanings to us. However, I also know that it is not good to get upset to those dearest to us. What can we do?? Well… sometimes we have to try our best to ignore them, not really ignore 100%, but just accept and let go. That will surely make our life easier. Hence it is what I called ‘theory’, to apply it, will be very difficult. Just give our best, Just Do It!!

Well, not so happy already about the good news, trying very hard to let it go…. Have a great weekend ahead friends

When you do something for someone, have you ever thought that whether that someone appreciate what you did? Sometimes we sacrifice something for someone, to please him/her I should say, how we would know whether he/she appreciate it.

Some people will just keep it to themselves that they have done something for another person, very humble type. Some will say out to the person that they have done something for them. Some will spread the news to everybody that they have done something ‘great’ for the person.

I would like to share a sad story about sacrifices. A girl, says ‘A’, had a bf. One day the bf said that he wanted a break up, because he actually fell in love with another girl, named ‘B’. He said ‘B’ had sacrificed a lot of thing for him. When she had no money to spend, she still called him from her pre-paid card till her last cents. She would rather spend her money on buying top up card to call him than bought something for herself. When ‘A’ asked him on how he knew the she sacrificed those things for him, he simply replied that B told him so and he believed her.

‘A’ regretted that all the while when she was with him, she didn’t make known to him all the things that she had sacrificed for him. ‘A’ was a quiet girl who likes to keep everything to herself, she felt that whatever she did for him was ‘normal’ things that every girl will do for her bf. Apparently, the bf didn’t know it, hence he fell in love with another girl who was more open to tell him what she had sacrificed for him.

In the story, the bf did appreciate the sacrifices that 'B' had made for him because he knew that she did. However the bf didn't appreciate what 'A' had sacrificed for him, because he simply didn't know that she had done. So when we sacrifice something for someone, should we let the person know? Or should we just be quiet and expect nothing in return?

In the theory, when we have sacrificed something for someone, we shall keep it to ourselves. A saying in Bahasa says that whatever you right hand has done, don't let your left hand knows (in term of doing deeds). But in real life... would we be at the 'loosing' end if we did that? I think we have to be smart enough to decide whether or not to make known of the sacrifices that we have done.

Just a small thought…. What do you think?

Debt is not a new word for most of the Singaporeans I believe. Everything in Singapore is normally paid through installment or credit card, which automatically will be a debt to the person. I do not know how the feeling being in debt until last year, when I decided to buy an apartment in Singapore together with my brother. Although it was a good decision at the right timing, when the property prices are going up steadily and I was sort of chased out of my rented room after staying for more than 4.5 years because the landlord were moving to a new place also without planning of asking me to join them (dreaming I guess hahaha). If I were to rent another place, the price will be on the high side, and even paying monthly installment for my own place is cheaper. On the other hand, it makes me in debt for 30 years!! Yes, 30 years installment. So by the time I am old enough to retire, I will then finish paying for my apartment. Well, we’ll see how it goes though, it is a long way to go haha

The point here is, with debt on my shoulder, it is truly a burden. When my work was doing just fine, I didn’t feel the debt. But being in debt certainly restricts you on doing something you want to do. For example when I feel like quitting my job and find a new job, I can’t simply do that, I have to find myself another job first before I can quit because I have to pay the installment and keep my life going. Can’t expect me to eat bread and plain water everyday, rite?

At the same time, I have actually started my MBA and it does take a lot of money, although that money I am willing to part of voluntarily for my future. Yes, I am looking forward to my bright future. To think back, I might have made few wrong choices, on the other hand I am happy on where I am now, but the pressures come from everywhere to move on faster. Again because of the debt, I can’t do whatever I want like in the past.

Yesterday I woke up with this thinking of changing my whole life all over again. I want a new brand job, but of course with higher salary, if not how to pay my debt? Haha Can I do that? Nobody can answer me yes or no, but I believe I will get what I deserve. I want those people who pressurize me to go away and not bothering me with everything they can think of. Hey, I have made my parents proud since I was a little girl…. But seems it is not enough…

Jia you!!! Jia you!!! Jia you!!!

Have you ever realized that life is short? Not for me too… until yesterday. The night before yesterday, heard from a best friend of a high school mate passed away because of cancer, lymphatic cancer. I was shocked to hear that, life is so unpredictable. Haven’t seen the friend for a very long time since high school if I can say and I was in the same class with him only during the first year of my junior high school, which is like 17 years ago. Wah.. time passes very fast. Anyway, was already very sad of hearing the news, although I do not know him well, but the lost of someone we know really disheartening to me.

The next morning, which is yesterday, I was caught in the MRT, as there was a track fault. Feeling bored I turned on my hp, I usually turned on my hp when I’m reaching office, and I received an sms telling me that I have lost another friend the day before, due to womb cancer  I was shivering while reading the sms again and again… then another 2 smses came in to inform me the same thing. She was my university mate back in Bandung, although not in the same class, but we took the same course. We have been through a lot of things together for 3 years. Hence we were apart after graduation and gone our own way, got in touch through friendster on the update, or through other friends of ours. The next thing I know, she has passed away 

Losing 2 friends in a day!! Imagine how short life is. They are about my age and both loss the battle to cancer. Last year I lost one friend to cancer too. Why is that cancer took so many lives??

Go in peace my friends… we remember you… always…

Yes, so many babies around me now  my friend’s babies of course, and more are coming  5 more are coming to this world… can’t wait… I tell you, it’s baby boom this year end   Looking at their pictures, cute innocent faces, happy parents. Feeling like the world is easy for them, with people who love them, care for them and take care of them everyday.

I guess the tiredness of the parents is all gone with the cute looking faces that they have…. It’s worth everything I believe they will say  I can only say I am very happy for them. Just looking at their fruit of love have made my heart feel happy and happy and happy

I am getting ‘mad’ about babies I guess… wait, other people babies for this moment, ok hahaha